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Aug. 29th, 2002 11:23 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravencallscrows"Yon Cassius has a lean and hungry look.
He thinks too much.
Such men are dangerous."
--Julius Caesar, Act 1, Scene 2, lines 193-196
Yes, i'm thinking too much again, damnit. Since i'm cursed, as are most people, with 20-20 hindsight, i'm busily looking back at the past few months and realizing so many things which i should have done differently, or which should have had different resolutions.
A friend of mine was recently writing about Peter Pan Syndrome. I have it, and badly. Not the classic case where the afflicted tries to avoid responsibility- i don't have a problem with that; but with not knowing what i want to do when i grow up.
At 35, with a B.A. degree in Literature and History from a reasonably reputable university, i'm presently employed in my fourth different career path- i've run photo labs, been a journalist, a professional photographer, and currently work in the software industry. I'm also dabbling at writing a novel, although i find more time to come up with reasons not to write than i do actually writing. I lack discipline. I think i could be happy as a novelist, but that would take committment, and that's something i seem to lack.
I'm working on myself. Growing, changing, and learning to define what my needs and wants are. It hasn't been easy. I foul up more things than i want to. This is just another transition period, right? It'll pass and i'll get out of this damn chrysalis and learn to spread my wings without being doomed to continue to foul things up. Please?
He thinks too much.
Such men are dangerous."
--Julius Caesar, Act 1, Scene 2, lines 193-196
Yes, i'm thinking too much again, damnit. Since i'm cursed, as are most people, with 20-20 hindsight, i'm busily looking back at the past few months and realizing so many things which i should have done differently, or which should have had different resolutions.
A friend of mine was recently writing about Peter Pan Syndrome. I have it, and badly. Not the classic case where the afflicted tries to avoid responsibility- i don't have a problem with that; but with not knowing what i want to do when i grow up.
At 35, with a B.A. degree in Literature and History from a reasonably reputable university, i'm presently employed in my fourth different career path- i've run photo labs, been a journalist, a professional photographer, and currently work in the software industry. I'm also dabbling at writing a novel, although i find more time to come up with reasons not to write than i do actually writing. I lack discipline. I think i could be happy as a novelist, but that would take committment, and that's something i seem to lack.
I'm working on myself. Growing, changing, and learning to define what my needs and wants are. It hasn't been easy. I foul up more things than i want to. This is just another transition period, right? It'll pass and i'll get out of this damn chrysalis and learn to spread my wings without being doomed to continue to foul things up. Please?
