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Apr. 16th, 2002 11:07 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravencallscrowsYup, that's right. 35 today. Guess what? It's as anti-climactic as 30, 25 or 21 was.
It's ok, though. I'm not particularly big on personal events anyway.
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damashita has had at least one naughty dream recently involving Christine- interestingly enough, apparently about the same time that Christine and I were arriving at the good Rev.'s apartment on Friday night (ok, so it was technically Saturday morning).
Interestingly enough, as attractive as i find her in several ways, that's somewhere i really haven't gone. I don't think i've allowed myself to go there. It's tough enough taking things slowly and proceeding with caution without letting the libido get in the way.
Now for the self-second-guessing. How slowly is too slowly? Being assertive is usually a problem for me- or at least finding the balance with it, and as result, i know i tend to err on the side of push-over far too often, because i'd rather string things out than force an issue and chance coming off as a pushy asshole. On the flip side, sometime you just have to be extremely clear about what you want, because doing so everyone involved knows. I know I've said something to Christine indicating a definite interest several times, but i'm not completely certain that it's been received as seriously as it was delivered. Damnit, why can't people just read my thoughts sometimes? I'd even volunteer to have the LED readout hardwired into my cerebral cortex, just to be able to display exactly what i'm thinking or how i feel to any particular person at any time.
It's ok, though. I'm not particularly big on personal events anyway.
Found out that
damashita has had at least one naughty dream recently involving Christine- interestingly enough, apparently about the same time that Christine and I were arriving at the good Rev.'s apartment on Friday night (ok, so it was technically Saturday morning).Interestingly enough, as attractive as i find her in several ways, that's somewhere i really haven't gone. I don't think i've allowed myself to go there. It's tough enough taking things slowly and proceeding with caution without letting the libido get in the way.
Now for the self-second-guessing. How slowly is too slowly? Being assertive is usually a problem for me- or at least finding the balance with it, and as result, i know i tend to err on the side of push-over far too often, because i'd rather string things out than force an issue and chance coming off as a pushy asshole. On the flip side, sometime you just have to be extremely clear about what you want, because doing so everyone involved knows. I know I've said something to Christine indicating a definite interest several times, but i'm not completely certain that it's been received as seriously as it was delivered. Damnit, why can't people just read my thoughts sometimes? I'd even volunteer to have the LED readout hardwired into my cerebral cortex, just to be able to display exactly what i'm thinking or how i feel to any particular person at any time.
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Date: 2002-04-16 11:11 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-04-16 11:26 am (UTC)I really need to become a Merc member- and to live closer to the city, because both coming directly from work and making the hour drive back into town suck royally.
Besides, with Victor/Tenashachor's recent death, I can see the community being more sombre than usual tonight.
Planning on doing the coffee gathering at Aurafice tomorrow, though. What time does that usually get started?
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Date: 2002-04-16 11:40 am (UTC)no subject
Date: 2002-04-16 11:50 am (UTC)Hope things start looking up for you- wish i were in a position to help, but i'll keep ears open for people who might be looking for roommates.
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Date: 2002-04-16 03:50 pm (UTC)Although i think calling her girlfriend (other than in the generic term "hey girlfriend!" way) is premature, she still has a boyfriend - at least theoretically. Unless you had another girlfriend in mind.... what about that woman you work with that you go on-and-on about?? :)
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Date: 2002-04-16 09:33 pm (UTC)Besides, there's a technique called something like "positive declaration" wherein we allegedly create what we want by speaking it aloud...
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Date: 2002-04-16 10:28 pm (UTC)Sorry :(
Date: 2002-04-16 03:03 pm (UTC)Sorry it's late :( BIG hugs to you though :)
Re: Sorry :(
Date: 2002-04-16 11:07 pm (UTC)Nor have you a reason to be sorry. It's not as if it's something of which i was making an issue, just reporting that 35 isn't any different than any other year, and natal anniversaries none than any other day- except that the real evil is that today was also my one-year as a "real" MS employee (as opposed to a contractor), so now there isn't anything keeping me from being able to switch groups other than finding a vacancy and someone who wants to insert me in it.
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Date: 2002-04-16 10:53 pm (UTC)Re:
Date: 2002-04-16 11:02 pm (UTC)besides, the night isn't over yet.
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Date: 2002-04-18 11:25 am (UTC)Pozhaluysta, by the way, Aries man :-)