Hippo birdie two ewes....

Yup, that's right. 35 today. Guess what? It's as anti-climactic as 30, 25 or 21 was.
It's ok, though. I'm not particularly big on personal events anyway.

Found out that damashita has had at least one naughty dream recently involving Christine- interestingly enough, apparently about the same time that Christine and I were arriving at the good Rev.'s apartment on Friday night (ok, so it was technically Saturday morning).

Interestingly enough, as attractive as i find her in several ways, that's somewhere i really haven't gone. I don't think i've allowed myself to go there. It's tough enough taking things slowly and proceeding with caution without letting the libido get in the way.

Now for the self-second-guessing. How slowly is too slowly? Being assertive is usually a problem for me- or at least finding the balance with it, and as result, i know i tend to err on the side of push-over far too often, because i'd rather string things out than force an issue and chance coming off as a pushy asshole. On the flip side, sometime you just have to be extremely clear about what you want, because doing so everyone involved knows. I know I've said something to Christine indicating a definite interest several times, but i'm not completely certain that it's been received as seriously as it was delivered. Damnit, why can't people just read my thoughts sometimes? I'd even volunteer to have the LED readout hardwired into my cerebral cortex, just to be able to display exactly what i'm thinking or how i feel to any particular person at any time.

I've been repressing?

Citing myself from 9 February (the first appearance of Christine in my LJ):

I can honestly say that i don't just want to get in her pants. If the chance presented itself, i probably wouldn't say no, but it's definitely not a priority- i'm not sex-starved enough to be looking for a casual fuck, but there aren't enough people that i know well enough around here to just hang out with, and she seems like a cool enough person that hanging out might be fun.

OK, so things have changed a little over the last few months, but not that drastically. I'm definitely interested now in going past just being casual friends. Would definitely be into some sort of relationship. She is incredibly cool to hang out with. I still can't think about just getting into her pants though. I can also say honestly that i'd like the opportunity to present itself, but i'm not going to obsess about it.

Must not let the little head do the thinking. It thinks it's a genius.