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[ravencallscrows]

Does anyone reading this know what it's like to get The Call™— to just wake up one morning and know beyond question what it is that you're supposed to do with your life?

There are a number of things i enjoy doing. even some for which i have a degree of aptitude, but nothing of which i can see making a lifelong pursuit career. As a result, i'm having a really difficult time focusing in any particular direction or working on a particular project.

I want to finish my novel, but i'm too fucking lazy to work on it. I have a few interesting graphics arts projects in mind, put can't bring myself to take the time to take any of them on. I really like music, but can't make the time to practice anything.

I suppose it's possible to be more dispassionate about things than i am now, but i don't see how. Bleh.

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[jeffrey.livejournal.com]

Yeah, actually, I do. But it's not a wake-up-one-morning thing. It's an inkling you get one day, and so you dabble. And you dabble some more, and the inkling grows. And then one day you suddenly realize that your hobby of dabbling has become more important than anything else (outside of your loved ones). It's no longer a hobby, and you find that if you don't dabble you feel miserable and like shit most days. At this point, however, it's probably good to call it something other than dabbling. :)

It took me a long time to realize that writing was what I wanted... needed to do. Don't feel bad if it hasn't happened for you yet, I'm sure it will. And I have to tell you, there are days I feel damn lazy and don't want to go anywhere near my writing, but then I ususally end up regretting it. If I force myself to sit down and just start typing, usually it will come and I will be much happier for it.

Ahh the human, such a mystery. Try to force yourself to do something you don't want to do but you actually really want to do.

We are complex in annoying ways, eh? :)

[skyewolf1.livejournal.com]

hmm, looking at it that way I guess that my "hobby" has become my "calling" :D...

Thanks, never looked at it that way before...