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Jun. 12th, 2002 05:09 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ravencallscrowsBleh. Wednesday again. This means it's the loooooong day at work. It's going slowly, too. Fortunately, in about two hours and fifteen minutes, i can escape to Capitol Hill for coffee tonight with most, if not all, of the usual suspects.
Finished writing my review today. Figured i'd fire the very subtle warning shot across the bows indicating that i'm not particularly happy doing what i'm doing. I also did this six months ago at the mid-year self evaluation, and got told that not only did i want to continue doing what i'm doing but that i wanted more responsibility to go along with it. That's not going to happen this time- if it does, i'm going to HR and pulling out all stops on trying to find a job somewhere else. I'm not going to continue to subject myself to continuing to do a job which i actively hate and which isn't a particularly good fit. Better to try to escape before Stage Three burnout arrives and i manage to find a way to try to actively sabotage things.
Anyway, enough about job stuff. I'm depressed enough as it is about it without brooding over it. Going to try to write a "lifechange as butterfly" piece, even though it's not perfectly formed in my head. I figure it can't be significantly worse than the dreck i turned out last night. This one's not even going on paper- you're getting raw core-dump poetry, and it'll probably suck, but i don't care.
Damnit, some group or other is having a party in the atrium right below my office, and they're a bunch of noisy fuckers. Gotta get up and close the door so i can hear myself think.
There. That's better. At least i can hear my music over the din.
Anyway, here's a go at it.
Metamorphosis
Hatching from my egg
Hungry
Must eat.
Eat eat eat
Skin shedding
Getting bigger
Caterpillar legs
Carry me to more food
Getting sleepy
Full now
Must sleep
Sleep sleep sleep
Pupal cocoon
Sleeping changing
Chrysalis captive
Transforming anew
Emerging from captivity
Departing
Cozy shell left behind
Changed changed changed
Wings now spreading
Lighting out
On a breeze, I
Fly
OK, that's really, really, really bad. No flow to it at all. See why i don't try to force the images usually? See what happens when i do? *shudder*
Finished writing my review today. Figured i'd fire the very subtle warning shot across the bows indicating that i'm not particularly happy doing what i'm doing. I also did this six months ago at the mid-year self evaluation, and got told that not only did i want to continue doing what i'm doing but that i wanted more responsibility to go along with it. That's not going to happen this time- if it does, i'm going to HR and pulling out all stops on trying to find a job somewhere else. I'm not going to continue to subject myself to continuing to do a job which i actively hate and which isn't a particularly good fit. Better to try to escape before Stage Three burnout arrives and i manage to find a way to try to actively sabotage things.
Anyway, enough about job stuff. I'm depressed enough as it is about it without brooding over it. Going to try to write a "lifechange as butterfly" piece, even though it's not perfectly formed in my head. I figure it can't be significantly worse than the dreck i turned out last night. This one's not even going on paper- you're getting raw core-dump poetry, and it'll probably suck, but i don't care.
Damnit, some group or other is having a party in the atrium right below my office, and they're a bunch of noisy fuckers. Gotta get up and close the door so i can hear myself think.
There. That's better. At least i can hear my music over the din.
Anyway, here's a go at it.
Metamorphosis
Hatching from my egg
Hungry
Must eat.
Eat eat eat
Skin shedding
Getting bigger
Caterpillar legs
Carry me to more food
Getting sleepy
Full now
Must sleep
Sleep sleep sleep
Pupal cocoon
Sleeping changing
Chrysalis captive
Transforming anew
Emerging from captivity
Departing
Cozy shell left behind
Changed changed changed
Wings now spreading
Lighting out
On a breeze, I
Fly
OK, that's really, really, really bad. No flow to it at all. See why i don't try to force the images usually? See what happens when i do? *shudder*
