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[ravencallscrows]

Damnit, almost time to go back to work from vacation. On the bright side, it'll be a short week, and i've found that yet another of the people I used to work with is now at MS- Brad L., who starred as Paradox during our Boneyards days is contracting in one of the games groups. Might try to get together for lunch with him or Cadmus before the end of the week or early next week.
I've spent most of the last two hours sitting on the floor reworking my mail for about the fourth time. I think the problem originates in not having a set place on which to work, and as a result, i pick stuff up and stash it somewhere , and when i pick it back up, links are all but irrevocably tangled up, and it's less frustrating to just rip the damn things apart again and start over than it is to try figuring out how to untangle it.
Alexander is going to be spending Friday night at grandma's again- i think they've figured out that he's finally old enough that they can do stuff with him. I'd like to take inanna and go clubbing- maybe the Vogue or someplace, and continue working on the whole socialization aspect of things, but she doesn't seem to be too receptive to this idea, suggesting that instead we have an adult's night in and go pick up a movie or something. She'll probably win- it's not a big enough thing to make much of an issue out of, and it'll definitely be cheaper and easier to get up the next morning to meet her mom for breakfast and to reclaim the little boy. Still, though, for the first time in countless years, i'm enjoying getting out and hanging out with other adults, and i'm still holding out the faint hope that we'll be able to find a girlfriend in whom we're both interested, who is available and open to the concept, and is mature enough to really actively pursue having a relationship with [author's note: yes, this is crappy grammar, i know, but the sentence is convoluted enough that at present i can't figure out how to rework that final phrase so that it's not].
Someone tell me that at some point our libidinous cycles will be in sync again! I'm getting frustrated yet again. Moreso, we've now flip-flopped the social interaction axis, and i'm the one who wants to get out for a change, which such anomalous behaviour i want to see where it goes.
Had loads of fun at the con- beginning to look forward to next year's already. Two weeks to my birthday, another week and a day to the Great Big Sea show, and six days from that to our anniversary. Got the month all scoped out and whatnot. Hoping we manage to get something else working soon.

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[ithilien.livejournal.com]

i'm still holding out the faint hope that we'll be able to find a girlfriend in whom we're both interested, who is available and open to the concept, and is mature enough to really actively pursue having a relationship with [author's note: yes, this is crappy grammar, i know, but the sentence is convoluted enough that at present i can't figure out how to rework that final phrase so that it's not]

Here, let me try... I bet I can fix up that sentence real purty-like:
"...the faint hope is still being held out by me, that we'll be able to find one in whom we're both interested who might serve as a girlfriend, with availability and openness to the aformentioned concept, and also being in possession of maturity sufficient to be the one with whom we would like to really actively pursue the having of a relationship"
NOW do you see why I don't like writing? I dare you to diagram THAT! ;)

[inanna.livejournal.com]

Aww honey...i am sorry. If it wasn't for an early morning on Saturday (meeting Mom and alexander for breakfast and then heading to the "biggest garage sale in the county" at the fairgrounds) i would be all over going clubbing! Mom seems more willing to take alexander more often, so perhaps we can plan something for later in the month.

You seem to be really focused on looking for a girlfriend... which is fine. But it really isn't a priority for me at this point. It seems like we hardly have time for each other - i don't know where i/we would find time for another person. But, if you want a girlfriend - more power to you. Not that i wouldn't enjoy it at some point - and it would probably be good for you.

i love you - honey.

go gentle.

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[wingedelf.livejournal.com]

Here's why that won't work: i have absolutely no interest in being the central person in a "hinge-type" relationship. What i am interested in is attempting to find someone in whom we have a common interest so that we can build something of benefit to all of us. We get to spend little enough quality time together now that i'm not detracting from it by investing time in building anything with someone in whom you may or may not have an interest at some indeterminite time in the future. I'd rather to continue to do without than have a repeat of the Kim situation- it's just not worth it.
You're fortunate in that you have local social outlets- you've lots of friends who live locally with whom you can get together and do things, and often do in the evenings and what not. I don't resent that. Unfortunately, i don't have the same opportunities. Other than James, who's more of a hermit than i am, everyone who i'd consider a friend lives too damn far away to just call up and go out for coffee or drinks on a whim- it's an hour-plus drive and, accordingly, all the damn planning that that entails, which makes it impractical- and accordingly, that much more frustrating.
That and i could have sworn that you indicated that you could very possibly have an interest in a particular person quite recently....
As it is, i don't see that ever happening for either of us in the foreseeable future (damnit), and am not going to exert any more energy in that particular direction.