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Damnit, it's Monday again. I'm back at work, and so far holding it all together. Well, pretending to hold it all together, anyway. Haven't lost it yet, but i can feel the panic and stress right there. Going to head off to lunch with an old friend and colleague who's working on some Xbox stuff. Bugger it. I'm not going to kill myself for this job- or any other one for that matter.

Just in case anyone was this interested:

I seem to be auditioning for the role of Poster Child for Stage Four Burnout presently.
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Bear with me, folks. I'm too stubborn to give up, just looking for a way to take the advice i've given so many other people and figure out how to avoid the battle i can't win.

OK, enough with the bitching already.

I don't know how my friends do it. I'm sick of my constant complaining about things, so i can only guess how tired you all are of it.
Hopefully things will change on Wednesday. I'm taking advantage of actually having medical coverage and going to see my physician. I'm going to push for getting short-term disability, which will give me some time away from work to deal with the stress which currently has me significantly less than completely functional. It'll also afford me some paid time to look for another job.
One way or another, i'm going to try to stop complaining about it.
So tie your shoelaces
To my shoelaces,
I'll tie a rope to a tree.
We'll see how the wind whips
Happy fool faces,
Come blow away with me...